What's in my mind?????

Kimi, signed in

Stared at the ceiling, thinking and keep on thinking, about life, including love relationship, study and so on. First thing comes in my mind, which is the one that i keep on thinking about is "her".

Ive met lots of girls (not to be cocky) but there is something about "her" that makes me keep on thinking about her. Ive made myself busy, but still, it doesnt help at all.

I dont take it as a problem for me to keep on thinking about her, cause it makes me smile. Everytime i go out with my cousins/friends, i always wished she was around.

Then, my study, to achieve my dream, to finally make my parents really proud of me. I dont know how should i progress with my degree program now, as there are quite numbers of offers, which is very tempting. Part of me says just accept the offer and work now, whereas the other part of me says pursue my dream first.

I always set in my mind, that one day i will the one that i want to be, someone who is very successful and specialise on the field of what im doing now. My mum has always been my source of inspiration (mama belajar sampai master, and she even got her master masa ia ada family, us her son) so for me, i want to be one step higher than mama, not for fame, its to clean up my family's name which has always been looked down by some peoples.

I am proud with my family, my parents, my 2 big brothers (abg bahrin and abg zul), not matter what people say about them, i am still proud of them, of who they are.

Ok, i have to admit, this post is some sort of a way for me to let things out, and i admit, tears did come out when i think about all these matters (hakim menangis??nda jua menangis banar..sikit ja bah). Nevertheless, i know i can get what i want as long as i put some effort on it, and i will be the 1 that i always wanted to be.

As for "her", i rindu u :p and i just cant wait to meet you again and see your smile (sweet bah heheh).

Thats it, im out.

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